i guess existentialism issue sounds so 2014 already. so now let's try another one we may fit in. lmao.
well i was afraid had suffered depression or any-cool-named crisis lately, like i just felt sad every once awhile without any reason. it happened once, then it's gone, and came again, and the cycle kept turning to the other side.
u may feel familiar, i might have told u before, the same situation ever happened--a bored, confused girl with a medium level frustration tried to both curse and conquer the world. but that was an old issue i finally could overcome. this recent 'crisis' is kinda different. i feel productive instead, i go to college, i have some jobs at the same time, i earn, i enjoy my work environment. but i felt sad anyway, occasionally. and its been bothering me.
shiz im no kid anymore. i should've not expressed this whole condition in a seamless, total explicit recount. anyway.
you know what, it's not. i think i dont suffer the so called quarter life crisis. afterall people my age is going through the same phase elsewhere in this world. we all begin to leave our comfort zone to enter a total real life. barefoot. naked. some of us bring curiosity. some of us, anger. some of us, passion. maybe other with bad intention we never know.
disoriented, confused. we feel lonely and small. but maybe it's just that we are tired. we are tired and somehow we just feel demotivated. we're only human. all of these growing up things may drain our energies sometimes. yet everything remains unfulfilled. the world is very demanding these days. we might push our limit a lil bit too hard. society told us it will paid off. and sure it will. it's ok to cry, but i want u to know, you're not alone. we all go through this phase with that pain in the ass and u know what, it's ok.
it's not a crisis, it's not a shit talk. honestly it's just a casual exhaustion, a sign form our own selves that we need a rest, sometimes. to sit down, calm our mind and come back to that one lil park where we start it all. we need to see how the seeds we'd planted have grown to those beautiful flowers. we need to find back the reasons why we all start it and stop seeing the other park.
let's focus on our park. how green it is no matter how yellow it actually was. dude we need to mow some areas later. look how the plot of the garden is asymmetrical and how beautiful it is. and why dont we embrace the weather? it's raining and going to storm. it's snowing and we start to freeze. the sun is up and our skins turn red.
let's do it anyway
listen to good songs and dance to it
go to karaoke, live concert, sing your heart out to these songs u love
find somebody to hug
find someone to have fun with, laugh out loud, and cry
smile to strangers passing by
forgive everybody. forgive ourselves.
then stand up, and let's continue the journey.